My apologies

for not being a better ICLWer. I swear I had very good intentions, and a whole lotta no-motivation.

Maybe I will get my act together for next month. Thanks for the comments from those that did stop by and I will get over your way very soon, I promise!

On another note, things have been a bit tough lately. It seems that as soon as I think I am over the hump of my funk, I seem to find myself on the way back down to greet it again. I have had more ok days than bad days, but the really good days seem to be somewhat missing. There has obviously been a lot going on in my life for the past few years, and this year has been no exception. As well as I've managed through the past handful of months, I think that it is getting closer to catching up to me. And if I learned anything a few years back, it is to not let it get so overwhelming that I find myself sinking to the bottom of a pit that appears to have no bottom. So I am stepping away for a bit and I am heading back to my counselor. I am feeling very good about this decision and BigTex is supportive. More than anything, I just don't want to lose myself in all that is happening. And not happening. I am feeling anxious, distressed, concerned, and generally uncertain of the future and for all the 'letting go' I keep trying to do, I'm not doing a very good job.

So keep me in your prayers, if you would, and I hope to be back sooner than later and writing about coping with the stress of growing a family instead of drowning in it.