Bad cliche but a broken record nonetheless - 1w6d

Tomorrow we hit 2 official weeks waiting. A mere 2 weeks...14 days, 14 nights...a standard TWW. But an eternity to me.

Anyone who has ever wanted something with every fiber of their being should know how these days are crawling by. And yet, I have NOTHING to complain about because it has only been 2 weeks. That - my friends - is not even a wait by most who are waiting. That is just the beginning.

I'm a brat for mentioning it. For even insinuating that I am impatient. What do I have to be impatient about when there are so many waiting families, both domestic and international? Don't forget all the fellow infertiles waiting it out in TWW, waiting to cycle, waiting to see the doc, waiting, waiting, waiting for their freakin' turn. Boy, I have some nerve.

Yet, here I am a little sad and beginning to be a little disappointed. A piece of me wishes our SW had just let us go on believing that we would probably wait the standard 6-10 months (maybe more) to be matched or placed. But instead, we have spent the past 2 weeks in a bit of overdrive and feeling some sense of urgency to hang two damn ceiling fans, clean off dusty bookshelves, move a heavy-ass, queen sleeper sofa and a guest bed, to pick out a name (or at least even start talking about it)--all the while, working (or trying to work) with this major movie of a daydream running through my head making me late for everything, miss at least every other exit on the freeway, and forget 90% of the time what it is I went in the other room for.

The call messed me up.

DH says it got our asses in gear. He says we needed that to kick start our preparedness because otherwise we would have be in SO far over our heads. Now, he says, we are "more ready." He says, these two weeks have been vital (well, he didn't say that but I can tell he is more calm and he has been quite johnny-on-the-spot around the house since the call).

Maybe they have been vital. We have processed so much and I know that it did ratchet up our 'get things ready' list. I am just hoping that he is right.

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I also know that God wants me to stop. Just stop. To see Him every day, every where I am, every where I look. I need to give this to Him, again. I must give it to Him. This is His plan and even though the minutes and hours seem to tick by eternally, He says, "...these things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, be patient! For it will surely take place. It will not be late by a single day. " (Habakkuk 2:3)

It is yours.