My joy breaks have been nearly all I've been able to muster, along with a lot of lurking and some random commenting. Mostly because I'm just trying to focus on the little things right now. The big picture has been slightly overwhelming the past few months, and I want to make sure that I am not losing ALL of the goodness in my life to my ridiculous and frustrating bouts with anxiety. Hence delving back into my juvenile bonbons--they are helping to keep me totally unfocused on real life, and being all grown up.
As mentioned in my joy breaks recently, I've re-read Twil.ight & New.Moon in preparation for the movie. Oh. My. Goodness. I forgot how these books suck you in and send your imagination running wild. And book 2 was my favorite last year when I read the entire series, so now that I've seen some clips for the film and read the book again, I'm seriously thinking I need to join a support group. No, I don't have life-size cardboard cutout of Jacob. Yet. But if TL isn't just the cutest frickin' thing....
The next bit of love is that there is a fall season of SYTYCD! I was a major season 3 lover, and season 4. Season 5 disappointed me a bit. BUT, season 6 is proving to be a potential favorite of all time. I was majorly impressed with Bianca/Victor and Legacy/Katherine as well as a few other individuals. I can't wait for the next episode! Hey, it's a way to kill like 3 hours a week in lala land...don't hate!
As for my ongoing loves of OTH and Gossi.pGirl--I've been obsessed with OTH for several years now, and I even rented the entire series to make sure I was completely caught up when I started watching in season 4. Now it's season 7 and I still love it. This one is sad, I know. But what can I do? GG is newer, only in season 3, but I blame my friend N for getting me hooked early. We'd watch it and talk about it each week, as in how ridiculous it was and how adorable Penn was. Now we don't work together anymore, but I'm still watching. I dvr both of these and watch them on my time. BigTex will have NO part in any of my tv indulgences. Oh well. Love them still the same.
Wow. Nearly an entire post without mention of our baby wait. Until now.
I had a realization on Tuesday when I was chatting with friend who's wife is now 19w. with their first baby. I realized she is only half way. As in, they still have another nearly 5 months to go. It then dawned on me that we are technically only 13w2d. Barely in the second trimester. We would still have nearly 7 months to go if we were pregnant. And I kind of laughed to myself--what do I keep freaking out about? Our 'pregnancy', our wait is right on par with what I imagine we'd be going through if I was actually physically expecting. After IF, I imagine that the first trimester would have been fraught with worry, anxiety, plenty of freak-outs, and unease. Now, if we were entering the 2nd trimester, I would hope that everything I'd heard was about to be true--that the 2nd trimester is the 'happy' trimester, the 'feel-good' trimester. And that at least for the next 90 days, I'd be able to enjoy the wait, enjoy life, enjoy what I KNOW is coming.
So here's to the 2nd trimester. And to a bit (or a lot) of teeny-bopper distraction!
1 comment:
Wow, I never thought of the paper pregnancy wait compared to the nine months! It doesn't sound so bad, but I think in reality it's just as torturous because it could happen any day. It probably doesn't feel like you are being strong, but from the outside, I see a lot of strength in you. :)
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