My brain is operating in snippets these days...here are a few (sorry if they don't make sense!)
-------
My best friend Kate leaves on Saturday for Russia to meet her referral...and hopefully her new daughter! I am so excited for them and I can't wait to hear the details of the trip. Please pray for them as it will be an overwhelming trip, I am certain.
-------
We are finished with the home study paper trail. Actually, tomorrow is our "Baby Care" class--as in the one where we learn to feed, burp, bathe, and diaper a baby. The same one that got cancelled, then switched, then almost cancelled, and then moved to a new day. But we're on and once we get done with our three hours we can breathe a sigh of relief. For now.
-------
We had an amazing time at our adoption class earlier this month. We met other families at our same place, families adopting for a second time, and even a family adopting after having three birth children. It was very intense as you can imagine but I finally felt like we made progress in this journey. It was one more step. It also raised all kinds of insecurities and has had me praying even more since then that God knows how this is supposed to work out--and that when we finally ARE ready to have a match with a birth family, WE will be ready. I have also been praying for our future birth family--that they would be led to adoption, that they would know in their hearts that it was what they wanted to do and that they would know us when they saw our profile as the right adoptive parents. Please, if you pray, I ask that you pray for us and our future birth family. It is the only way I know to not live in complete and utter fear--and we can use all the help we can get!
------
I feel guilty for my bad ICLW performance last month and my lack of commenting in the past couple of weeks. I have been reading LFCA and all my regulars every day, but I have just not known really what to say. I am all over the map right now emotionally and if I could get a recording of how my thoughts have been jumping around, it might give you some insight into my craziness. But since I can't, please know how much I love following all of you. I feel grounded when I check in here and when I read your stories. I don't know how I'd get by without you!
------
There is more, I just can't get it out now. More to come.
4 comments:
thanks for popping in earlier tonight. i am so excited for you and how your journey is progressing and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your birth family. take good care.
i know how those snippety thoughts go - I have a lot myself! Sending many prayers to your birth mom wherever she is - and so glad that the classes are going well.It's exciting to be on the way - and good luck with the baby care class! take care:)
All is good over here; thanks for asking! Glad to hear that things are getting done on your end. I, too, think about you often.
As you so eloquently put it: more to come.
Hugs,
Jo
Wow! It sounds like you've been very busy over the last few weeks - no worries about poor ICLW performance in April. I skipped out on it totally after signing up. :) Sometimes our real lives become too much to handle and the blogosphere has to be put on the back burner. No biggie. We are all still here for you.
I can't wait to hear about your friend who headed to Russia and I am filled with optimism for you and your DH.
Post a Comment