21 weeks. 6 days. Still waiting.
Wednesday we will be 22w1d. It will be one year since we learned IVF #2 failed. BigTex couldn't believe I knew that.
I kinda can't believe he didn't.
That will be the second to last time that we ever had a chance of having our own little one. It will be burned in me for all time.
As much as this "holiday" season is supposed to be about joy--I really, REALLY, can't help but realize all we didn't get to be joyful about this year.
I am so sorry that I am the "Debbie Downer" under the tree this year.
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Hi, Nicole,
Found your blog a while back, but first time commenting. Firstly - thanks so much for sharing your story.
Also want to say that while I hope you can find some joy in the holiday season - as my lovely therapist would say - "it's OK to feel the way you feel!" So, no apologies if you need to be Debbie Downer right now (....maybe just don't let Debbie take up permanent residence.)
Sending healing energy your way and hoping that the wait for your Little One isn't much longer.
If it helps at all, I was the same way last holiday season. We had a match fall through literally on Christmas eve, though it had been circling the drain for weeks like a slow miscarriage.
It's okay to feel like that - I was a total scroogey grinch crab last year, it'll pass. It will.
Waiting sucks.
Sending bloggy love and hugs your way.
Jo
{hugs}
Wah-wah...gosh, I really haven't watched SNL this year...
I thought I would forward you the Spaces for Faces website (this is where I got our Adoption-Pass-Along cards from):
http://www.spacesforfaces.com/
Not bad on price...nice glossy two-sided business cards...add about $10 for shipping. They have standard ones where you just pop in your picture and edit the text...or, for just a few dollars more you can get creative and design your own. Good turn around time...you get a proof prior to printing.
I figured what the heck...can't hurt to get our name out there. You never know who might know someone!
Try to stay positive...it is hard...I know....oh, I know...
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